I’ve been doing floor exercises since June or July (3 or 4 months), slowly getting stronger. Using 5-pound weights for my arms and just doing bodyweight exercises for my legs with some rubber bands. It started off ridiculously slow. I could hardly do 10 of these guys on my left leg:

Left ankle is replaced. Entire leg is much weaker but I can get my bum in the air. Can’t put my foot directly under my knee because of the lack of movement from the replacement. This is not where I do my exercises, just needed some example pictures.

And I couldn’t (and still can’t) get my leg straight on my right side because of the hip replacement:

This is as high as my bum will go from a lack of flexibility from the hip replacement. But the actual leg is way stronger than my left.

It started off incredibly frustrating but I got stronger really quickly. After two weeks of doing floor exercises, I got stronger. That felt really good because I could feel the improvements really quickly.

I moved to a condo with a gym and I went to the actual gym for the first time since 2015 this morning. I had stopped going to the gym in the summer of 2015 (just after I cut out gluten but before the elimination diet and wayyyy before all beef). My physio had told me I was going to hurt myself because of my ankle replacement failing. So I quit. Then I lost all the weight I wanted to lose by going on the original elimination diet so I didn’t even feel like I needed the gym. I knew I was weak but hell I had abs (which I had never been able to get at the gym).

Then I got pregnant and had a baby and destroyed my core (as it does when you stretch out all your abs to hold a human). Slowly built that up (just by waiting and doing some seriously minor ab exercises) before I started the floor exercises.

Anyway, I’ve been avoiding going to a gym because I HATE it. I came up with excuses. I do need an ankle revision surgery (scheduled in January). It does hurt to do leg exercises. But mostly I was avoiding it because it’s frustrating and it’s hard and that is a terrible excuse. So I went today and absolutely hated it again. Not the exercising part. The frustration part. I’ll keep going regardless. And I’ll hate it less every time. I knew the first time would be the worst.

My left leg is SO weak. And my ankle hurts. And I can see the difference between it and my right leg in the mirror. It’s so weak. It’s not weak like before the floor exercises (which I have to keep remembering), but it’s so much weaker than my right. It’s the visual difference that gets to me. And my right ass cheek is weaker than my left because of the hip replacement!!! I have to do all the leg exercises separately on the machines so that I’m working out each side equally or one leg just takes over.

So after the complaining, mostly I wanted to say:

After you fix your diet and get healthier – that takes time, give yourself the time to adapt, go through sugar withdrawal, get into ketosis, and start to heal – start exercising. Start doing things again. It can seriously suck to begin with, especially if you have injuries or you haven’t done it for years, or you’re just permanently fucked in some way. It can seriously suck. Verge of tears frustration about life suck. I don’t get upset easily now that the depression is gone, but it still sucked. That’s not a reason to avoid it. If you’re healthy enough to exercise, force yourself to do it and you’ll get stronger slowly. And suck it up if it sucks. (Mostly talking to myself here). Suck it up because things could be much worse (you could be hallucinating soy demons). After you’re done feeling sorry for yourself (try and keep that to a minimum), turn that frustration and self-pity into determination and anger and tell the cards you were dealt to go fuck themselves.

My goal exercise-wise is to become one of those people with huge asses AND joints replaced. Stay tuned. Might take a while and will definitely be interrupted by a hopefully successful surgery.



  1. Marx on October 24, 2018 at 11:18 am

    Hey you – check out Egoscue http://www.egoscue.com if you cannot afford it, let me know and I will hook you up to get a free menu from the man himself. This will definitely help you out ??? Cheers

    • Jim on October 24, 2018 at 11:28 am

      That is a great idea.

  2. Jim on October 24, 2018 at 11:24 am

    Hang in there. Remember keep listening to your body. To build, you need to train and allow time for rest and repair. (Can’t give you a rule of thumb). Remember a little discomfort a day or 2 after exercise is good and avoid NSAIDS. (DOMS-> Delayed onset muscle sorness). NSAIDS decrease inflammation and the muscle soreness is indicative of inflammation. The body is adding fluids to the area to clean up and repair the muscles. (so you can grow stronger) NSAIDS make this process take longer. If the DOMS pain is too much then of course take an NSAID. Just think you over did it and back off a bit.

    I used to listen to podcasts in training but have transitioned to upbeat music. (although on very long runs – 8+ hours I have to vary it)

    Best wishes. Jim

  3. Justin on October 24, 2018 at 11:49 am

    Bloodflow Restriction Training/Occlusion Training is a good alternative to get a training effect without putting a large weight or strain on the joints.

    Either near the shoulder or near the top of the leg is occluded (make sure you use correct width of bands and only occlude about 70% of max) and high repetition (15-30 reps) sets are completed with about 1 min rest (usually 3-4 sets total) while the bands stay on. This causes a large amount of lactic acid to build up in the muscles (which is very unpleasant) which causes the body to release a large amount of growth hormone and hypertrophies not just the occluded area but surrounded muscle groups as well.

    Please obviously check with your physio first to see if they advise this with your conditions however I’ve gotten great benefits from using occlusion training in off-season/injury training and personally have had arthritis/autoimmune symptoms.

  4. mdonfi on October 24, 2018 at 12:19 pm

    At one time your diet was your enemy yet you still needed to eat, so you found a balance. The solution was perfect discipline in what passed your lips. Now injury is your enemy. There is no future in being injured. As with diet perfect discipline will be your shield. Judge against who you are, implants and all, not against who you “think” you should be. Take this as advice from someone who has spent a lot of time injured.

  5. Soytanic Panic on October 24, 2018 at 12:28 pm

    Any chance of documenting that ankle revision surgery? It is a good idea to have your surgeries videotaped if possible, that way they are less likely to play with and make fun of your peen when you are unconscious, I kid not.

    Mickaila your bodymuscular meat efforts must be effective because you don’t look at all physically fucked up compared to the average female. Hail brocco-meat!

  6. Irina on October 24, 2018 at 1:21 pm

    Hi Michaela

    Tension&Trauma Releasing Exercises
    It is an amazing method that you do on the floor after fatiguing a bit the muscles and causing shaking of the body. It is both a good feeling and absolutely benefitial.
    There are youtubes on that. One can do it independently.
    Good luck with everything!

  7. Will Brown on October 24, 2018 at 1:26 pm

    +1 on the Starting Strength suggestion. The strict emphasis on correct form is key to a healthy strength gain IMO.

  8. Imogen Rex on October 24, 2018 at 3:36 pm

    stay strong Mikhaila – and thanks again for sharing – with love, Imogen.

  9. Greg Rellis on October 24, 2018 at 3:39 pm

    “tell the cards you were dealt with to go fuck themselves.”
    if you don’t trade mark that and put it on a tee shirt I will!
    That’s so Goddam awesome on so many different levels

    • Brother Boles on October 25, 2018 at 12:20 pm

      I concur that would make a nice t shirt. It’s not the Language I use (Minister) but I do know a good idea when I see one.

  10. dont forget WALKING on October 24, 2018 at 5:09 pm

    Walking is good exercise too So long as your orthopedic or physical therapist says. I used to highly undervalue walking, being a former athletic meat head the concept of exercise was only variations of extreme back when my pain tolerance was high.

    There really isn’t a better exercise than walking. Swimming is a runner up. If I were forced to choose yoga vs pilates I would go with pilates, however, it is cheaper to simply do planks and similar core exercise on your own like you are in your picture.

    It is still difficult to believe you have a serious physical health problem by looking at your physique. I don’t mean that as an insult. I don’t doubt your story concerning depression, sometimes (but not always) listening to a person speak can indicate the likelihood.

    Whatever you are doing is courageous, especially if you happen not to be open-oriented to people exposure. Phobic of judgement, or whatever.

  11. Brother Boles on October 24, 2018 at 6:01 pm

    I have a titanium left femur and hip. Running is out because most people don’t know your bones do bend some but titanium does not. When I ran every time my left foot hit the ground it felt like a brick. I listen to audio books and after listening to what Alexander Solzhenitsyn went through (your fathers recommendation) enduring pain has changed for me and makes working out much easier. Work throught the pain because the results are worth it. You’re a brave young lady to share your life both good and bad with others in the hopes it may help someone else.

  12. Magdalena Tywoniuk on October 24, 2018 at 6:35 pm

    Congrats, that take such a huge amount of courage! Especially since you have such a serious and rare version of your disease. People can say what they want about your diet, but no one will know the kind of courage it takes for you to make these changes and even to attempt exercise in lieu of depression or stasis. I have also battled an infuriatingly elusive disease for most of my life; years of misdiagnosis and finally rare rapid gastric emptying, rapid intestinal transit (so no digestion), and severe (deathly) non-diabetic hypoglycemia. I am sure there is more. I can’t digest even a small amount of vegetables and live on protein (if I could afford to live on sashimi). Exercise has been my saving grace; you unlike me don’t have the skeletal resistance, me unlike you doesn’t have the digestive resistance. My weaknesses are cheese, chicken breast and wine — I also don’t like oil or butter so keto is haaard. I broke my knee in 2 places skiing and tore my ACL this year and it was hell, so I have only a tiny inkling of what you mean by instability, pain and fear for your ankle… Anyway, I just wanted to give a big hoorah to you, and tell you that like you there is someone else that has no support group, no one to talk to, and has to just wing it and do the best they can. You are so much stronger than me. No matter what anyone says (especially those healthy people who binge drink at family holidays and have unsolicited leftovers at 3 am and then criticise the healthiness of your diet..) you are a soldier, a mammoth will, and a beautiful soul. Stay strong and get stronger…

    all my well wishes!!

    • not another on October 24, 2018 at 10:28 pm

      She should still have her upcoming ankle surgery video archived, including herself waking up from general anesthesia and then blabbering about ridiculous, cute, and embarrassing things such as peans or whatever

  13. Sue on October 24, 2018 at 9:00 pm

    Hi Mikhila, check out Tim Anderson and his Origional Strength Reset; a body strengthening system that I think will have you rocking rolling and laughing. IT FEELS SO GOOD!! These 5 moves strengthen and Reset the body, nervous system and brain for anyone, no matter age, or condition. We all have gone through these from birth to walking. All you need is the floor…and be like a baby… Breathing, nodding, rolling, rocking, and crawling. Basic, simple and profoundly DELICIOUS. You, baby girl and husband can roll around together! It’s NOT about pushing through the pain, it’s more like PLAY, massage and deep relaxation. I’m alergic to gyms and always knew there had to be another way…to have a good feeling body. Elegant, strong and true. Like you. (Tim Anderson, Origional Strength, Reset, YouTube)

  14. Cult of the -Khaila on October 24, 2018 at 9:29 pm

    “Returning to the Original You”

    Sue, it sounds kind of cultish for exercise program, sorta like yoga, however, the exercises look like they are legit.

    I suppose it’s cultish-ness is nothing compared to that of US Football or UFC as a weird cult. Most people are unable to think of Football or other sports in that way though. The violent competitiveness feels more down to animal nature and like it is real or something. I haven’t thought too much about it until writing this sentence.

    So.. so what if it is a cult?! Ascend to the next level, the level beyond human. Become the space monkey. Ride the 1 way comet if that is where your desired cult takes you.

  15. huge donkey? on October 24, 2018 at 9:37 pm

    What is meant by WANTING A HUGE ASS?

    You seriously want a large gluteus? Or is it a pack animal you seek?

    • Brother Boles on October 26, 2018 at 7:46 am

      DUH I just got that. That’s funny. I’m usually on here before I have finished my coffee. I know excuses, excuses

  16. soy demons on October 24, 2018 at 11:16 pm

    “a hopefully successful surgery”

    sheesh.. I sure hope so too. Being able to walk is good.

    There isn’t a whole lot that can be done, even if a drug that cured all your autoimmune joint deterioration for the remainder of your life. It will still all break down soon enough due to innate programming. Gravity, physics or however you like to explain it.

    So what about soy, augmented soy, poisoned soy, no you are ‘alllergic’ to it… ok. but It doesn’t seem logical or like truth.

    • Armin hot dogs on October 25, 2018 at 12:36 am

      Her brother became a soy demon, her father is obsessed with riding lobsters to Valhalla and she only wants to a big Caboose.

      Anything at all wrong with that?

  17. Miranda Plum on October 25, 2018 at 1:53 am

    “Tell the cards you were dealt w9th to go fuck themselves”. Made me laugh and cry. Go girl.

  18. Andre on October 25, 2018 at 9:50 am

    About 1 hour before going to the gym, if you drink  bicarbonate buffer, you can prevent lactic acid buildup in joints.


    Even if the body has a stable pH of more than 7, within normal limits, after 15-20 minutes ph starts to go down. It is normal, as long as we do not exceed our limits, the body is regenerated by producing buffer (sodium bicarbonate) to neutralize lactic acid.

     Since you are on carnivorous diet, your pH is definitely below normal limits (the body is acidic),milivolts are down.When you exercise will go much lower.

     In a bottle of water (only spring water) if we  add 1/2 teaspoon of baking soda + 30 ml of magnesium bicarbonate, and drink it before going to the gym, not only  we will have more energy / mobility but,we will work a lot harder.

    The body will have more buffer to prevent lactic acid formation.

    Have  you test your body’s  ph level? A simple test is the ph in urine ,in the morning at the first hour. If urine is below 6.3, there is definitely excess of acidity in the body.
    The lower the number, the more acidic the condition. The ideal urine reading should be between 6.5- 7.5.

     To fix acidity / pH we need a buffer (from “n” reasons the body could not fix it).

    The carnivorous diet, although it can get rid of many symptoms, cannot balance our ph. The  acidic food include many protein food( some fats and seeds) coffee and alcohol. The  alkaline foods are rich in potassium and magnesium.

    Food can be  classified as acidic or alkaline depending on the contend of the minerals .

     As we need potassium and magnesium while we are on this diet (bicarbonate ).

     Inside our body we need  a pH of 7.0-7.5

     Our blood will always have a stable pH (7.3-7.4), the body takes minerales from our bonds  to balance the blood ph.

     A supplement i will take is ph adjust (is the only one I know it has a good bicarbonates ratio). Instead of magnesium  bicarbonate,  they use  magnesium carbonate ,which is not the same,and does not work the way magnesium bicarbonate works.

     Ph adjust would be my second option. The first option, would be to mix the sodium bicarbonate and potassium bicarbonate powder on my own ( ratio will change). To much sodium takes out potassium from our body . They need to be balanced. For the first two weeks I will  do  2:1 (sodium/potassium ),then I ll change to 2:1 (potasium/sodium, and stay there for a month). I will use only pure powder. I would not take more than 1 tsp -1 1/2 tsp of this mixture per day,and not more than 1 month.
     In my case, takes the  most 3 weeks,   to pick up the ph at the ideal limit.  People with high blood pressure should be carefully with sodium bicarbonate (will increase HBP).

     Becouse, I want magnesium bicarbonate (better than magnesium carbonate) I will make my own :


     There is a difference between unique water and the one made of milk of magnesia and carbonated water.Unique water (magbicarb)  is structured water.

    Structured water  creates an  electrical potential (voltage) . In other words, structured water stores energy, much like a battery.

    Since i don t want to spend $80 for an litre of magnesium bicarbonate , I use magnetic stirrer (vortex)  to structure the water. There are many ways to do it.
    Both light waves and infrared waves, for example, charge structured water with energy.

    That s way MagBicarb is expensive ($80 for 1 liter).
    Magnesium bicarbonate  will work as a buffer the same way, regardless witch magnesium bicarbonate water we use (magbicarb or the cheap one we make it home).We don t need to structure the water if we use it as a buffer.



    God bless you all

    Medical Disclaimer
    The Content is my opinion only ,and is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions you may have regarding a medical condition.

  19. Greg on October 25, 2018 at 4:32 pm

    Since starting ZC I’m able to run and exercise again, after 16 years of debilitating chronic exhaustion and a laundry list of symptoms. I didn’t have the same issues as you Mikhaila, but my ass was kicked into the ditch, and now I’m feeling the same recovery as you. I was once an ultra marathon runner before this shit storm began. This weekend I run a 10k trail race. My last race was 18 years ago. New beginnings eh!?

  20. James on October 25, 2018 at 7:45 pm

    I am also getting over disability on carnivore and having good luck using resistance bands. Here’s an idea: find a way to attach the bands *above* your hurting ankle, and then do leg press, abduction, or hip extension exercises lying down. There are lots of sets of inexpensive bands on Amazon.

  21. eddie on October 25, 2018 at 9:51 pm

    In the Dr. Oz interview, Dr. Oz asked your father about his diet, commenting that he was “rail thin”. Your dad revealed that he had lost over 50 lbs. on the all-beef diet!! Now much does your dad weigh now, 120? 130 lbs.?

    • Spartacus on October 28, 2018 at 3:58 pm

      In his Joe Rogan interview, he said he weighed 161.

      • eddie on October 30, 2018 at 5:12 pm

        When was his Rogan interview, because his recent Dr. Oz interview is new on his blog? If he continues on his meat diet he will continue to lose weight and become emaciated.

        • Spartacus on November 2, 2018 at 10:56 am

          On carnivore, people don’t just keep losing weight indefinitely. Eventually the body gets to where it wants to be and adjusts the appetite and energy expenditure accordingly.

  22. Barbara on October 26, 2018 at 12:03 am

    It’s amazing that you’re able to make time to exercise, run the blog and be a mother on your own – you’re an inspiration to us all!

  23. Will Brown on October 26, 2018 at 6:45 pm

    So, your right hip looks like sexy Mom, your left hip looks like sexy girl; you need to get yourself one of those two-headed coins to flip just in case Batman shows up in your life. 🙂

    Also, a key to being a successful Gym Rat is to team up with other Gym Rats and develop a training group together. Doesn’t have to feature everybody, every time, but a small-ish group of regular training partners that mix-n-match training schedules and activities on a regular basis. You end up supporting each other just by challenging each other, and it takes SO much of the suck out of training.

    You got this.

  24. Steven V on October 27, 2018 at 4:45 pm

    Keep going Mikhaila, looking good!! I seem to have a somewhat similar hip problem going on but with no way near the arthritic response and pain you have had. I find going into the pool helps a lot with trying to get balance into your body, especially the legs. Try the pool some, especially when your inflammation is high on that day. The water is so good for resistance and support.

    I had to go back to New Hampshire and get my house on the market but I am permanently moving back to Florida to be able to get back into the pool everyday and get all that wonderful sunshine. Left Florida 6 months ago and notice a substantial difference of not being able to get back into the pool and get that sun exposure.

  25. eddie on October 30, 2018 at 5:15 pm

    Take it easy on exercising your stomach muscles because you could cause an inguinal hernia on the left side, particularly after pregnancy.

  26. cns on October 31, 2018 at 3:56 am

    Best wishes on ankle, Do you intend to avoid all painkiller meds?

    • Mikhaila on October 31, 2018 at 8:41 am

      Yeah :/ as much as I can. I’m definitely not taking anything orally. Hopefully I can get a patch or something. Well mostly I hope it just won’t hurt too much haha

  27. John Hair on November 1, 2018 at 12:27 pm


    I tried reaching out to you on IG but I know you are busy over there. I believe I have exactly the same condition as yourself, and I had a question. How are you able to dine out regularly and remain symptom free? As soon as I take a bite of steak from a restaurant, I immediately begin feeling the inflammation starting due to what I believe is the cross contamination of gluten in the kitchen. Were you not always sensitive to CC or were you able to tolerate restaurant food after transitioning to the carnivore diet?

    • Mikhaila on November 1, 2018 at 3:56 pm

      I only eat at places I know can serve steak with nothing on it and honestly it terrifies me. Dad eats out all the time and can manage it at high end restaurants but it freaks me out. The keg will do a seasoning oil free steak, they’re not bad. I only do steakhouses when I go out though and I’m very particular and clear when I order

  28. noorma on November 1, 2018 at 3:51 pm

    What if certain JRA is an overractive immune response to Proteus mirabilis metabolism or other soil commensal found in produce?

    “proteus mirabilis haemolysin peptide”

    ‘Rheumatoid Arthritis and Proteus’ By Alan Ebringer

    according to;
    “Proteus mirabilis is a Gram-negative, facultatively anaerobic, rod-shaped bacterium. It shows swarming motility and urease activity. P. mirabilis causes 90% of all Proteus infections in humans. It is widely distributed in soil and water.[1]

    Like body not liking bacterial toxins more than usual freakout.

    Lipopolysaccharides on steroids in my cider.

  29. Spontaneous humanoid Combustion syndrome on November 1, 2018 at 3:58 pm

    like an ultrasensitive necrosis signal for specially-jointed people responding to cider containing cell walls?

    Erythrogenic toxins, also referred to as streptococcal pyrogenic exotoxins An exotoxin is a toxin secreted by bacteria. Throat infections associated with release of certain toxins lead to scarlet fever

    mutant soil bacteria yucky vegetable

  30. meaty sausages on November 1, 2018 at 4:05 pm

    everyone knows bacteria make the most potent yuckiest toxic vegetable

    Eat Only cows grassfed in hydroponically sterilized grassland might be necessary to avoid spontaneous immune reaction. that way the cow can not accumulate deadly bacteria signalling molecules to cause the immunity autolysis of the precious bodily fluid

    • sweden yes on November 1, 2018 at 4:08 pm

      superantigens in my pasta?

  31. call of cthulhu on November 1, 2018 at 4:13 pm

    Predestined precious bodily fluids to water the hungry soil organisms excreting the feed-me signal?

  32. yuckygurgles on November 1, 2018 at 4:19 pm

    Molecular mimicry between HLA-DR alleles associated with rheumatoid arthritis and Proteus mirabilis as the aetiological basis for autoimmunity

  33. Jordan michael Orr on November 2, 2018 at 1:16 pm

    My girlfriend has alot of the same problems as you have and is considering a beef diet as a last resort. I was wonderinf though, with all your research, what do you think of hemp seeds? Could this be a better option than beef? Thank you!
    Hopefully you read this. If you want to reply to j.mt.o@hotmail.com

    • Reed Nystrom on November 5, 2018 at 12:33 am

      No. Do NOT try and live off hemp seeds; you will likely get very ill and die. We’re not birds; we can’t live off seeds. The bioavailability of the nutrients contained in them is abysmal for us human beings, compared to that of the nutrients found in meat, especially raw meat.

  34. Jo on November 2, 2018 at 11:04 pm

    I would definitely not use any kind of seeds or hemp crap.

  35. Human Guinea Pigs on November 2, 2018 at 11:46 pm

    The answer is 100% sterile hydroponically fed ‘range free’ Guinea pigs… A good use for the baby crib

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